I am! here just before a stupid question: Should I cut my hair or not?
If I do, where I give the hair back then ...? In the garbage? Down the toilet? Or am I really so poor, give them in an envelope and set aside? And if I do not do? How does it go on?
Okay, to be honest, I have cried so much long gone. It does not stop, how seems. I am really ridiculous. And so I write all this now here. Although - or because? - It can read any. Let's see what happens. Somehow I find it lately especially on ... I refer my self-worth from my hair? A normal person does not understand you. But for someone who has so many implications such as I, and, moreover, sensitive and prone to depression is .... yes, it has a meaning. I've always said to myself "I am no matter what counts is my pictures and stories!" - This is so, but there are other moments ... Yes, I am ridiculous. Ridiculous, ridiculous, ridiculous.
And I do not even have beautiful hair! But long they are. Until now. We'll see. all ... I never talk about it, but ....... I really love my father more than my mother. Sometimes (!) I really hate. Really correct. So much so that I want to puke. (But I will never, ever write or say why that is !!!!) Most of all I hate that pitying look. Look at me not to. I feel sick. I have to wash 2 hours to get this nasty feeling get rid of, I think. Why can not we just be left alone ??!!! I need no one to pity me and rumschleimt! I can be alone, so. > __ \u0026lt;Oh, and even more viiieeel I hate that this woman can not punish me ey! I could do ANYTHING!
I'm really masochistic ... let me at least my problems, my anger, okay? Aaahh, what I write because there is really about ... what really ...?
... and this is only a fraction of my complexes. Welcome to my sick, sick world. :)
Okay, somehow I have to see to it that I get out of this depression ... > 3 \u0026lt;I can imagine that you think I am crazy and goes on for quite a distance, but ... I would honestly have some polite formality or so rich. ; __; Although I strongly expect it to be ignored. V__V hurrrhurrhurrr! Uuuuuuuuuund another shitty day draws to an end ..! But it rained. That's good. Very good. Soon I can draw again ...!!!! , 7,
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